"omg...you're like drew barrymore in "never been kissed!"!!!"

To live my life...as if I'm not or am i living a lie? Ok yea sure, i am almost 21 and have never been on a date but so what. Yes, i do want to be happy and have a family later in life but that's later alright. But still, so what. I'm perfectly happy just being by myself. Yea it'd be nice but i need to find myself before i go find someone or they find me. Haha. so a good friend of mine advise me to play the game, even tho she hates the game! I blew off a Halloween party tonight just so i wouldn't have to play the game haha. Oh well. Yes i do love being complicated!

And this is the part where you find out who you are

I think i did some real inspirational things and it was all in one day. I donated all my change for my light the night walk and walked @ cal Baptist for the charity. I also helped my long time friend out despite her having a breakdown and started crying. But i hope she takes my words and herself seriously. i know she'll be outta msjc & school for that matter soon and will be at the place she wants to be in life. after finishing the walk, i came home and started watching law and order:svu to relax. Then Cindy calls me. We always have good talks especially @ night time. talked about just what's been going on in our lives. Told Cindy about Sarah and she me realize how right i am about believing in your own self is more important then others believing in you  and that sometimes you gotta be selfish to achieve the things you want. Cindy said that it's so true & that she never thought of it like that before. She even made believe it's true lol. I really didn't know i had those kind or words inside me. But I'm glad i can spread that kind of positive thinking onto others. Life is good!